Friday, October 11, 2024

On Turning 75: From 2021


How It Happens

 The sky said I am watching
 to see what you
 can make out of nothing
 I was looking up and I said
 I thought you 
were supposed to be doing that
 the sky said Many
 are clinging to that 
I am giving you a chance
 I was looking up and I said
 I am the only chance I have 
then the sky did not answer
 and here we are 
with our names for the days
 the vast days that do not listen to us

— W. S. Merwin

 “In Blake, we recover our original state, not by returning to it, but by re-creating it. The act of creation is not producing something out of nothing, but the act of setting free what we already possess.” --Northrup Frye

Photo: Trinidad Head June 30, 2021

This is all I posted for my 75th birthday, curious choice for one of the Big Ones--three-quarters of a century.  On the day I was feeling somewhat wounded because no one but my partner contacted me. Pretty much a repeat of my 70th: dashed expectations, along with resolution to work with humility instead of indulging vanity.  Still, it seemed a loss for there not to be a celebration on my 75th, when I was healthy enough to enjoy it.  I got cards and a call on subsequent days, but that day felt pretty empty.  Had my life come to nothing?  Nothing is the key word in both the Merwin poem and the Frye quote.